This all started yesterday. I suppose it was caused by yet another virus. I was very tired, and I slept almost all day and all night. Once I got up at around midnight, I ate what would have been my dinner the night before.  A couple of hours later, I was still hungry, so I ate a can of soup. At about 5AM, I started to become very nauseous. So much so that I decided to take some medication. It didn’t help. So, I ended up vomiting. The scary part was that there was some blood in there.

So, I woke up my parents, and then we decided to wait and see what would happen. At about 7:30AM, it happened again. There was some blood again, but a bit less this time. It was time to go have it checked. By the time I was ready to go, the clinic had opened, so my father took me there instead of the hospital.

Things went pretty well at the clinic. It took only about an hour to get examined by a doctor. It turns out that I probably ruptured a blood vessel in my stomach while vomiting. Who knew that such a thing could happen?

I should be okay now, but that was quite a scare. I’m not supposed to eat until tomorrow, and then I’m supposed to start eating soft foods, like soup, rice, etc.

Not a good way to start the year…

No, I don’t have it, at least not that I know of. It’s possible that I have caught it sometime this year, but it’s just like a regular flu, so it’s hard to tell. I’m really surprised by the panic and hysteria surrounding this virus. It’s no worse than a regular flu — it’s just a new strain, so less people are immune to it. The real danger is for those who never have the flu, since they don’t have any sort of immunity to flu viruses, and they don’t know how to deal with them. I don’t have to worry about that.

It’s really amazing how people are waiting in line for hours for the vaccine. The media really did a good job on them. Of course, the pharmaceutical companies are big time advertisers for them, so that’s not really surprising…

Now, instead of spending hours in line waiting for the vaccine, people should be doing their research and reading the truth about the vaccine and the swine flu itself. The vaccine doesn’t work. No flu vaccine ever has been effective against any strain of flu, and they’ve been making them for decades. Not to mention that contents of the vaccines are more likely to cause harm than good. The irony is that people are afraid of the mercury in compact fluorescent light bulbs, for example, but they get mercury injected right into their bodies with these vaccines.

Well, another birthday has passed.  I’m now 28 years old.

The day went fairly well, although I was quite depressed at times. I wasn’t expecting the depression to be so bad, but there’s nothing that I can do about that. It did make me feel better to receive many birthday wishes from my online friends, and even strangers, but I’m still here alone in the end.

I always wonder what  my life would be like had I not become so ill many years ago.  Maybe I still wouldn’t have been happy with that life, I don’t know. My depression would have followed me no matter what path I took, much like the personal rain cloud from cartoons. I did have quite a bit of bad luck in my life, but things are getting better now, although not as quickly as I would like.

I got up at 3 PM today, which was not too bad. I waited a while to open my presents. I didn’t want to do it while I was very depressed, because I didn’t want my parents to think that I was unhappy about what they gave me. They always do the best they can for me, and the presets were just fine. They gave me some money, DVDs, a game, pajamas, and an LED flashlight.